So this weight thing...
I weigh 143 pounds. Seriously. I guess most people don't look at me and think, "she weighs over 140 pounds." Like this picture? Probably about 140 there. I'm 5'3" by the way and 140 is considered the top end of my healthy weight window, overweight by some standards.
I think everyone's perception of weight is screwed up due to so many women lying about their weight. All those 5'9" people who say they weigh 120 pounds? I was a skinny mini at 120 and I'm 6 inches shorter. Either they found a way to make their internal organs and bones as light as air or they are lying. 5'3" women at 97 pounds? Need a chocolate cake and a dozen doughnuts stat!
I'd like to say I'm enlightened and know that it's just number and what matters is that I'm healthy. But... To say I weighed 120 again? How sweet would that be? The catch is that all the work to get myself back down to 120? I'll admit I'm not willing to do it. That's 23 freaking pounds to lose! 130 sounds almost as good and if I remember correctly (my memory is a bit vague after 4 pregnancies up and down the weight scale), I was happy with my body shape at 130.
The problem is that I've tried to lose these same 5-10 pounds for years. At least as long as I've had this blog. There were periods of time where I'd be about 133 and then the scale would creep back up to 140. And every time this happened, I'd lose muscle tone and put on fat. So three years of yo-yoing and now I'm feeling very flabby.
I want a pill to erase the love handles (and a bit of a start of a muffin top, EEK!) I want my thighs not to jiggle just because I will them not to jiggle. I want to magically wake up dressed in gym clothes at the gym with the kids already in the child care room. I want Mountain Dew to be calorie and fat free.
So drastic times call for drastic measures. No Mountain Dew until I'm under 140 pounds. Walk a mile on the treadmill each day. Use the fancy new gym membership that Greg just bought at the fancy new gym that opens next week. Drink two bottles of water a day (that's 32 ounces, about 24 more than I usually drink. It's a start!). *deep breath* 10 pounds, that's all I'm asking to lose. This is the year to buy myself a new spring/summer wardrobe and I really don't want to need double digit sizes. (I'm clinging to size 8 with every fiber in my body.)
Although am I an idiot for starting a "diet" 5 days before Chocolate, err I mean Valentine's Day?
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