I suck at this Mommy Blogging stuff.
A lot of moms have lovely posts about their Mother's Day and how much their children mean to them (good and bad). Today I decided I should write something like that. And then all I could think to say was:
The kids are great!
No wonder I didn't get one of the ClubMom blogger jobs.
So I thought harder. Surely one of the kids has done something very cute or equally exasperating. Maybe Kelly with her "I need snuggles" (her way of asking for a hug and cuddles) or the twins and their constant whining (I swear some day my eyes are going to be permanently stuck in the "rolling eyes" position from the daily drama!). And then I'm back to:
The kids are great!
Zach's doing well in school, he's in the gifted and talented class and enjoys the challenge. Kyle is no longer wetting the bed at night (*knocks on wood*). And then, you guessed it:
The kids are great!
Finally I came to the horrifying realization that I'm missing everything! I go through my to-do lists and housework. I help the kids with their homework and tuck them into bed at night with kisses and hugs but am I really connecting? Am I paying attention? I feel like I've been on auto pilot: wake the kids up, make breakfast, give them lunch money, do the laundry, load the dishwasher, run errands, make snack, help with homework, make dinner, clean, tuck kids into bed. Where are all those wonderful moments that other parents write about? Where the heck are they?!?!
Yeah, freaking out here just a little bit.
Maybe it was bad having them so close together. I do have a built-in play group so why would they need Mom to play PS2 with them? And beyond spelling lots of words for Em and Ally's homemade books, do they ever ask me to draw a picture? (They do read their books to me, that is sweet.) Even Kyle and Kelly are happily playing with their stuffed animals in another room as I type.
Okay maybe we've just reached another life stage. I have been working towards the kids' independence all this time, right? Sleeping through the night, weaning, potty training, etc. It's good that all they need me for are laundry and hot meals. Although after I teach them how to do their own laundry and cook, what then? ACK! They won't need me!
No more auto pilot. I am going to find these moments that everyone else seems to easily have. They have to be there and I'm just overlooking them. Pay attention, woman!
Tonight we should have lots of opportunities: Brownie meeting, Zach's baseball game, and the twin's soccer game. (We have nothing going on the rest of the week nor yesterday or Monday, it's all happening tonight!) Tomorrow we'll go to the library. Maybe we'll plan a little picnic or hike at a local park this weekend. I will be a good Mommy Blogger!
Now if only I could teach this pesky to-do list to take care of itself...
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